Friday Five.
1. tomorrow is dinner dance, and needless to say that despite the fact that i am not in high school, my trend when dealing with dance excitement has not left my side. Im apathetic really. I just dont care, and i dont wanna go with my date kinda.. and yes it is my boyfriend. I know that once i get there though, itll be a good time, with him and my friends. I just hope I look ok.
2. Appearances. I have finally seen the numbers 120.0 on the scale. Ill wait for the applause to cease. I am thrilled, and proud of myself. I havnt seen those numbers since about junioryear of highschool, and im not stopping there. I want to lose more. I feel it is essential. By the end of summer and junior year begins, I will be 115 if not 110.
3. Along came a spider, that tapped me on the shoulder and whispered, it may be real. My pt yesterday and his wife have been married for 49 years, and were together 11 years prior. I ttook a few seconds and embarassing will power to pick my jaw off the disease infected floor. I asked how they did it, and they just smiled. I dont even really think they know.
4. Classes are bullshit. I cannot wait til summer. I hate it hate it hate it.
5. From here on in, I will act as I have before. No other emotion except excitement. It pains me that I cant start over. I trust no one. I feel like ihave no friends. I dont know, since ive lost weight Ive lost security right along with it. I hope it catches back up soon.
I run now, and It's slightly addicting. My getaway . A task that is challenging and relieving. When Im out there Im alone and thats ok.
I hope that I do not become too comfortable being alone. The silence is comforting and nothing can harm me.
Yikes im being melodramatic. But who can I talk to these days that understands, not many. We all have our own problems that forshadow the next. Everyone's is the worst inthe world. Looking at it from an objective view I would tell myself to get help, or get over it.
I need to work on that.
03 April 2009
20 March 2009
the friday five
1. Beautiful. B. That is what I have in Nursing. A solid bold, barabaric B. On this past test on Monday, I got a B+ and, needless to say.. I am happy. There is one more test, and the final. Push for an A? hmm, maybe.
2. Coffee rut. Coffee has grown to be my source of energy, relaxation, money deprivation, and smelly urine. This summer- more or less when school ends- I am going to do an experiment, and eliminate one of the 4 I just mentioned..I am going to make my own coffee and refrain from buying every morning to see how much money ill save. The ocasional one or two DD/WAWA/STARBUCKS wont kill me but.. I really cant afford it that much anymore.
3. "In a nut shell" this really annoying chick outside the lab keeps saying in a nut shell in a nutshell. If i had a nutshell id throw it at her head.
4. The Future. Oy. Starting this summer/next semester I need to look at my options after I graduate in May '10. I will have more than 75% of the credits i need to graduate from this BSN program, but honestly I cant TAKE it anymore. Some options include Jefferson, Temple, a typical RN to BSN program. Idk we'll see. I cant let this escape me. Regardless, graduating from GMC for my Bachelor's is not worth it. After the numbers roll in ill be able to examine it all more indepth.. because thats what its all coming down to - Money and lack of it. 5. Travel travel travel. New Orleans was amazing, and I am SO glad I participated in somthing educational and fun. I highly recommend anyone to go down if they get the chance. New Orleans is sucha culturally rich enviornment and the people are so generous, not to mention the food is good too. I gained new perspective on life in general while I was down there, and experience my first REAL stomach punch of homesickness..more or less john sickness. Thats really teen novel disgusting after I think about it. THis summer, John, his sister her boyfriend another couple and myself mayu go to the bahamas for a cruise..for 200 $ ..I really hope it pans out. but then again steph is organizing it. Assateague is going to get another visit from John and I , but for the most part I will be working and SAVINGGGGGGGG. Writing it down makes it real and since paper gets thrown away, electronic writing is fine for now.
Ah the sun, you fucker. You finally show your face after snow has mocked us all on this first day of spring. You have some 'splainin to do.
2. Coffee rut. Coffee has grown to be my source of energy, relaxation, money deprivation, and smelly urine. This summer- more or less when school ends- I am going to do an experiment, and eliminate one of the 4 I just mentioned..I am going to make my own coffee and refrain from buying every morning to see how much money ill save. The ocasional one or two DD/WAWA/STARBUCKS wont kill me but.. I really cant afford it that much anymore.
3. "In a nut shell" this really annoying chick outside the lab keeps saying in a nut shell in a nutshell. If i had a nutshell id throw it at her head.
4. The Future. Oy. Starting this summer/next semester I need to look at my options after I graduate in May '10. I will have more than 75% of the credits i need to graduate from this BSN program, but honestly I cant TAKE it anymore. Some options include Jefferson, Temple, a typical RN to BSN program. Idk we'll see. I cant let this escape me. Regardless, graduating from GMC for my Bachelor's is not worth it. After the numbers roll in ill be able to examine it all more indepth.. because thats what its all coming down to - Money and lack of it. 5. Travel travel travel. New Orleans was amazing, and I am SO glad I participated in somthing educational and fun. I highly recommend anyone to go down if they get the chance. New Orleans is sucha culturally rich enviornment and the people are so generous, not to mention the food is good too. I gained new perspective on life in general while I was down there, and experience my first REAL stomach punch of homesickness..more or less john sickness. Thats really teen novel disgusting after I think about it. THis summer, John, his sister her boyfriend another couple and myself mayu go to the bahamas for a cruise..for 200 $ ..I really hope it pans out. but then again steph is organizing it. Assateague is going to get another visit from John and I , but for the most part I will be working and SAVINGGGGGGGG. Writing it down makes it real and since paper gets thrown away, electronic writing is fine for now.
Ah the sun, you fucker. You finally show your face after snow has mocked us all on this first day of spring. You have some 'splainin to do.
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