I am so tired of hearing about Jefferson Hospital.

if you feel it, let it happen.

                                                                  "Oh You".

Today on the train I successfully completed 2/3 brain books. First one The Female Brain  was a quirky humourous revealing truth for why the female brain works the way it does, and a peak into how it functions. Questions of why girls are insane; were answered. Likewise, The Male Brain does the same thing for the male brain disection.

Nothing short of what we already know, now that we have grown - girls are emotional. guys crave sex. things don't settle down until the damage is done. some guys have the gene to mate for life, some are sex crazed. genetics is a basis, and we CAN alter our ways.

I think I shall tone it down and re-read my favorite book of all time. Yes Perks. I have not been able to find Mr. Nicholas's Sparks' books..he does have another one coming out soon :) Yay.

I STILL need to see the final instillation of HP. Womp womp. I can escape to the shore this weekend for a brief boiling minute. It's crunchcrunch time for school work. Brain went on overdrive this week and in combination with the heat..well.. I need to sit and do nothing haha.

Fingers still crossed. Dear Universe,
Do your damn thang <3

Adele will be in AC in October. At the Borgata...set back.. $145 for seats.. bummer.

Everytime I  listen to Rumour Has It by Adele...I visualize the "ou." Weird.

i wont crucify the things you do.

Sunday, my day for homework. Only two more Sundays of my undergrad will I sit and do homework. I am famished with excitement. No homework, just work from then on(until the grad school process begins.. I can never sit still). I don't want to jinx some of the opportunities coming my way so I'll continue to bite my tongue and keep my fingers crossed. I cannot knock the experiences I am encountering at the home..but it's slowly chipping away at my spirit.. Fingers crossed, tongue bitten..

The past few weeks have been filled with work school swish spit and repeat. Positively speaking the massive bills are payed and a dent is left in my dwindling bank account. Yesterday  I escaped to the beach for a bit. Tehe ohh the fun shaped burn marks I get. It's fun. Kinda.

 Another sunset on the horizon, and I bid thee farewell.

deactivate.

berp a derp; deactivated my facebook again. time for a little fbhaitus. no big deal.

rules that apply:

1. never say a shift will be easy - because it will go straight to hell.
2. you cannot teach people to care. it takes a special person to care about you and your flaws and think you are the most magnificant being around.
3. cinnabon coffee creamer really is the bees knees.

Happy Freedom Day!! Running on 3hours of sleeeep because my body automatically woke up.

Second chances? Taking a huge risk? It's easier said than done to swallow your fear.

start. stop. resume. pause. again.

If you could take your heart and lay it out flat, follow the veins and arteries, the mends and breaks- would things make more sense? Would you be able to see the right answer?

Probably not.

So with all the hits and misses, we carry on. Optimistically speaking, I have been feeling a static buzz. Like the game hot/cold when searching for somthing.. the buzz is heating up. But still NO answers.


Session I of Summer Session is OVER. YYEAHH BUDDY. Capped it off with an A. Beautiful. Now, the second session is full of work/BS nonesense and projects. I thought it brilliant to take up some nightshifts.. actually..8 in the next 15 days. Oh what's that? you have school 2days a week. You're right. FML. But but buttt, I will be able to save. That is the ultimate goal..since yanno my loans are coming in. Thanks GMC no degree, but a beautiful bill.

Nikki had her pool party last week, and it was really refreshing to see everyone in one place at one time. Drinking pooliside, dancing, swimming, eating, and convincing ourselves we weren't drunk. Of course over the monstrous breakfast of champions via Jeff, we concluded otherwise. Summer is different, when staying in touch because vacations jobs and sunsets get in the way.. what about when the summer is over. Keeping in touch , and staying close with people is work.. but the right people are worth it (I believe).

Odds&ends odds&ends. I'm really not sure what to do. Fall back down the rabbit hole, or push on through to the other side. I hate ultimatums. I hate how I can't avoid anymore. What I do enjoy though, is a brisk summer morning, a warm breakfast, and a mid morning nap. Yeah.

Oh. And I lost my contact.
Cyclopse view? thanks but I'd rather not see anything than half.