I had a nice long entry. But it got deleted.
"So Bridg is there actually anything.. happy? or positive? going on. " (After telling my mom about this weekend)
"Yeah, actually.. uh....mm... I'm alive. and actually genuinely happy with how things are. "
Win.
15 June 2011
06 June 2011
sit back down where you belong, in the corner of my bar with your high heels on.
[Lady Gaga- You and I ]
I cannot oogle enough about Gaga'a new album. I swear theres a song for any mood. Feeling quirky, crazy, dark, sad, sexy, beautiful.. there's an app a song for that.
If I hit the mute button...the strangest noise will fill the room. Silence. Mom just left to visit Aunt Mary and Cj... " Enjoy the peace and quiet princess." AHH relaxation before work. I can actually read my new book too, when I'm done reading this drug book. Is it weird I sit here and read a couple meds once in a while.. yes? Oh well. Yesterday I got lost in Barnes and Noble. My original intent was to go for some CAM Books and cook books but there's this fascinating thing called the internet and it's free. So new project - make a binder of my creations. Muahah. I need to stay away from books and music. Really. There are things I need like uh clothes, and shoes, and med stuff... but I canntt helppp itt. I see books and blank copy books and little organizer things and kitchen gadgets and go crazy. ALL REASON NOT TO GET A CREDIT CARD right there. Sorry mom.
Sky diving; an-omg-lets-do-it-in-march .. oh wait that never happened - activitiy I still am itching to do. I need someone, anyone to go with me. I mean just to make to have a witness if I go splat. Thats kinda morbid.. haha . . but in all seriousness. That or Ill use the money to go on a vacation/mini getaway in August when school is officially done.
I'm not rushing time or looking forward to things in my rediculous extremes anymore. Yeah, I need to constantly remind myself to relax and slow down, because I get too excited and wound up about things I'm passionate about...but.. it's nice to slow down and sit and watch a movie or two, and have a drink or two..
*le sigh*
Oh and I bought my favorite book ever again because I swear I lent it out and never got it back.
"When we hit the tunnel, all the sound got scooped up into a vaccuum, and it was replaced by a song on the tape player. A beautiful song called "Landslide." When we got out of the tunnel, Sam screamed this really fun scream, and there it was. Downtown. Lights on buildings and everything that makes you wonder. Sam sat down and started laughing. Patrick started laughing. I started laughing. And in that moment, I swear we were infinite."
05 June 2011
love like crazy.
I'm sitting here listening to Erin tell me about this sweet sixteen she went to where the girl gave away Coach purses for prizes and Ralph Polo shirts, and all this other crazy stuff. I remember my surprise sweet 16.. Erin Mom and Kelly Milano did it and they got me good. I'm really hard to surprise because of my need to know everythingggg. Party in the backyard with a couple hundred people. I'll take that anyday.
Ugh this room disaster is driving me nuts. I asked my sister to help me out.. team effort because between work and school and the job search from hell; buuut I pretty much am still doing it alone. Now it's time to prime the ceiling and floor.. tehe.. we got a little crazy with the paint which is a teal on one wall and lime green on the other. i LOVEEEEE it.
So, in line with the job hunt, apartment and area shopping is also on the list. *sigh* Staying out of the house as much as possible is a really good plan, let's put it that way. Woo SAAAA it will all get done.
Nostalgia has yet to hurt regarding school - probably because I'm still there. I'm really excited for Nikkis pool party at the end of the month to see everyone. We live close yet far, and life really throws distance in there quite nicely.
With the weekend winding down, things are going really really well otherwise. It's already June.. once 4th of July hits.. Summer is pretty much on the wind down. nononononoooo
I wanna hang on.
I also really want beach days and new shampoo.. stupid stuff making my hair look like a grease monkey.
Want a banana?
Ugh this room disaster is driving me nuts. I asked my sister to help me out.. team effort because between work and school and the job search from hell; buuut I pretty much am still doing it alone. Now it's time to prime the ceiling and floor.. tehe.. we got a little crazy with the paint which is a teal on one wall and lime green on the other. i LOVEEEEE it.
So, in line with the job hunt, apartment and area shopping is also on the list. *sigh* Staying out of the house as much as possible is a really good plan, let's put it that way. Woo SAAAA it will all get done.
Nostalgia has yet to hurt regarding school - probably because I'm still there. I'm really excited for Nikkis pool party at the end of the month to see everyone. We live close yet far, and life really throws distance in there quite nicely.
With the weekend winding down, things are going really really well otherwise. It's already June.. once 4th of July hits.. Summer is pretty much on the wind down. nononononoooo
I wanna hang on.
I also really want beach days and new shampoo.. stupid stuff making my hair look like a grease monkey.
Want a banana?
03 June 2011
a good kiss can send anyone's head into a tizzy.
His advice was that I needed to be single.
Her advice was to focus on me.
His advice was I'm not like that, and he would tell me to stop if it got outta hand.
Her advice was to live it up.
Her advice was it's neither of their business
Her advice was to continue on, he is going to regret it.
His advice was to pray for time to slow down, we don't have enough moments like this.
Her advice was why not?
His advice was just go for it.
do you.be yourself. figure out what you want.not yet.eventually.better as friends. love you. you're cute.drink.
When the words of others slowed down their marathon of chaos in my head; I let them go. I stopped thinking and began doing. It's already June and I cannot believe it. Session I will be over in two weeks, followed by the beginning of Session II. August 5th is my last day(!) and I want to plan a vacation of sorts.
The weekends have been pretty nice. This is the summer that really, is for me. Probably the best thing that happened was that I watched He's Just Not That Into You. If he wants to see you/talk to you he will. If not, it's his loss.
Work is work, and the job hunt continues.
I'm really happy to live in this moment; because really...rushing days doesnt do anything except waste time and we really do not have a lot of it.
Her advice was to focus on me.
His advice was I'm not like that, and he would tell me to stop if it got outta hand.
Her advice was to live it up.
Her advice was it's neither of their business
Her advice was to continue on, he is going to regret it.
His advice was to pray for time to slow down, we don't have enough moments like this.
Her advice was why not?
His advice was just go for it.
do you.be yourself. figure out what you want.not yet.eventually.better as friends. love you. you're cute.drink.
When the words of others slowed down their marathon of chaos in my head; I let them go. I stopped thinking and began doing. It's already June and I cannot believe it. Session I will be over in two weeks, followed by the beginning of Session II. August 5th is my last day(!) and I want to plan a vacation of sorts.
The weekends have been pretty nice. This is the summer that really, is for me. Probably the best thing that happened was that I watched He's Just Not That Into You. If he wants to see you/talk to you he will. If not, it's his loss.
Work is work, and the job hunt continues.
I'm really happy to live in this moment; because really...rushing days doesnt do anything except waste time and we really do not have a lot of it.
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