Biblical Sense

The age old dilemma of career vs. love. Well it may not be that difficult. My dreams were there before and they are here now. My true dreams haven't died and I would love to acheive them. What is the path though? What do I take next?!

With little support over on the fmailial end regarding BIGBIG chancey dreams I feel lonely, but I'm never alone.

solid music.

Just bought Lady Gaga's new album. Orgasmic love
The Script & Florence and the Machine
Now Erin and I will venture to buy paint for the room.
oooyy.

we had time against and miles between but now the sky has cleared and it's blue.

Summertime to focus. But it's hard to focus when the heat makes you hazy, and people can drive ya crazy. Sunblock will protect me from the sun, and my wall will protect me from the rest. Surface fun is what it will be.

It's going to be very, very interesting.

The world forgetting, by the world forgot.

Instead of spreading myself so thin, I keep compact. I keep you close, and your memory closer.

They say the best places to meet a future husband is college, do they mean grad school?

I'm already gone.

Life is a runaway train, you can't wait to jump on.

I'm jumping. I'm going. I'm getting ready to be gone. I've learned who I can trust, and who actually care. I've had my heart broken, and bandaged. I have failed, and succeeded and will continue to be better. I've cut ties, and I've learned to pretend. So what's the but.. there is no butt. I can guarentee when I get my situation together, the but will no longer be.

Yesterday I cleaned out my closet and under my bed; funny how things change and some stay the same. My dreams and quirks are the same since I was 13. "I love how you are crazy energetic and keep everyone positive at 9am, coffee or not." - From A kairos letter. "Bridg, are you drunk already?" " No.. I'm actually happy and this is me when I'm not here"- 5pm Last week

It's a shame people didn't get to know the real me, but if they didn't take the time to notice or care then it's their loss. I will keep intouch with my friends..Facebook is not an excuse.

Despite the adjustment of moving back home.. things are amazing.

I never have to return to the dorms- the black hole of fake bitches and bullshit.

Good.Bye.

the edge

when you have given everything you could muster just have it unnoticed

when the feeling of not enough almost consumes

when your heart is in your throat

and your stomach is contorted into unrecognizable shapes

and you know, you're on the edge

you have had enough

and can confidently say so

that's when you shake it off. and go get what you deserve

something better

something,

anything more.

just, go.

Flight.

Please don't worry.

You were just a glitch on my cosmic radar.

You did not disturb.

You will not be missed.

it's a great day to be alive.

Finally got around to waching that movie Jamie and Nikki were telling me is a must see.. and I do say that they were correct-dead on- LOVEDDDD it. Littered with life lessons, reaffirmations, new realizations and a new celeb crush. Thanks lovies :)


It is a wonderful day outside. While I was waiting for Jen ( a mere 10 minutes inthe sun) I got some color. Oh wicked wicked summer what the heck do you have in store ..

Did you ever want something SO bad, but know that the reality of it happening is really slim? But you really can't help but be excited for it anyway? When you KNOW that an opportunity, as suchj in that wanting, could change everything? If asked I will say yes, and have my bags packed. Sometimes I question if I'm being dramatic or overthinking - but let's face it. I'm not. I am really happy with my life right now- figuring out little old me, getting in touch with emotions and inuititions I lost, with not a  thing missing - persay..

I really should go and study for my final thats in an hour.. Hmm.. yeah.

The First.

Welcome to May; the month where things ceremoniously end, and others sneak a beginning. In 14days, I will unofficially graduate. Capped, gowned, proud. In 17days I will be starting summer classes.

This week will be my last week of finals; and I have yet to even look at the study guides. Not to mention there is a paper due on Tuesday as well, but it will get done. Today will consist of the packing Ive  been procrastinating, and the studying I have yet to start. Yesterday was an awesome way to bid farewell to April; won tickets to XTU, bought a few summery dresses, spent time with a biffer, went for a run, and capped it off relaxing - then warding off a migraine (cant have it all at once).

With deep breaths, the month will progress. I have a few hopes and places to go, but they won't happen just yet. Maybe it will work out? Maybeeee it will be postponed to wait for me? Probably not, but I can always hope.