Alas, coffee is coffee and I will suck it up- lovingly- but mark my words, decaf will never be a first choice.
Being unemployed has fantastic benefits. Relaxation and freedom being a nice duo. Not having to worry in general about schedules is another plus. I have never been so excited to be out of the house. Granted, I'm over John's but even so it's refreshing.
It's safe to say my body is at war. According to blood work, I've had Mono [ i think i've mentioned], and my titers were elevated for two viruses, and extremly high for a virus. Pretty much at one time, I'm having a reaction to something in the vaccine, am warding off two viruses while actively battling another.
I'm really sorry body!
Today, I am super excited to say is the Brooks and Dunn concert! Long sleeves and pants in attire, and then to the shore after. [No beach of course]. I dont care I dont CARE. IM GOING OUTSIDEEE!!!
One really anonying side affect is alopecia--- hair loss. Like, a lot. Like 1/2 of my head is gone/thinning, and Ive only been on the meds for a week.
Positive - my rash wont scar - as long as I stay out of the sun
Negative- it can take up to three weeks to go away.
GOODBYYEEE TAN I WORKED SO HARD TO ACHEIVE
Oh and all the taste buds on my tongue are gone.. burned off. But i dont have any acne.
I can't wait to go back to school, and I'm kinda glad I won't have to go to any interviews or work looking like this. I will need to get a job or two at Gywnedd and prepare for the massive pay cut..
ANY LOVELY FRIENDS KNOW ANYWHERE I CAN GOOOOOO????
Giddy gumdrop I'm gonna go get ready and see what the heck I can do about my hair..
Silk Scarf purchases soon? I think so!
29 July 2010
updates may be frequent.
A cute, relevant tote.
I am discovering- through a cocktail of drugs and caffeine- I do have interests. This may seem like a startling and stupid realization, because it is for me too. The survey question of what are your hobbies/interests always leave me with a blank stare and the gutted urge to refrain from putting long walks on the beach. [Although an interest, it very cliche and very far down on my list].
I love art. And learning, and creating. I love brainstorming, and tweaking the ordinary. Quote collecting, and saving cute text messages are also mini hobbies. among others
I have a new book, and a new planner [thanks mom]. She has been really concerned since she found me wrapped in seran wrap. She is feuling my blood with coffee and offered to buy me a new book SQUEEE .. that is how I stumbled upon the all too true tote up there.
On to more music searching and other things
you may just see me as the next vampiress.
OHKAY! Well. I feel as though my current condition has set me up in a great plot for a sci-fy vampire novel movie whatev.
Update in 5 word sentences or less. YESTERDAY'S EVENTS
Went back to doctors.
Still has no idea.
Body still covered
Went to allergist IMMEDIATLY.
Not seafood, he thinks -WOO
Rash Called : maculopaplar eruption.
Last up to two weeks.
Still on high dose steriods
thought eh-no more benedryl.
WRONG WRONG WRONG.
May be allergic to eomycin.
In the vaccine, like neosporin
GREAT!
Allergy testing week before move-in
Steroids= no sun, weight gain...
itchy, bitchy, snappy, miserable
Skin= goes in cycles daily
Starting to slough[ said sluff]
Llooks like : think toss your child into boiling water..thats what it looks like
It feels like..cue list
sun burn-burning if on hard surface
moquito itch urge, i resist then it feels like electric pinches
gets redder and hotter as the day goes on
burning sensation from the inside out.
SO! It's starting to peel, kinda. I wanna die. I feel like the plague. It's gonna last a week at least.
I will be wearing long sleeves and pants out doors. Cant get burned 1) steroids make u burn 2) if this shit burns itll scar..fuckkk it im going to brooks&dunn on sat and the shore.
Oh and i cant drink because of the roids.
This will make you laugh::
so last night i couldnt take it anymore. when i resisted to scratch it burned and pinches and stupid nonsense. SO i googled anti itch. Vinegar works on my moquito bites.. so i tried that. I learned my skin is open in certain spots.
Then i tried wrapping my arm up tight in seran wrap. nope made noise and scratched my healthy skin.
THEN i made a baking soda concotion, painted my arm, and then seran wrapped the shit outa it. Fell asleep sitting up with my one arm under my leg.
In all fairness, I had to be allergic to something. But nooooo cant be itty bitty hives. NOOOO had to be this bullshit. People get hospitalized for this and I should be for like pain meds and high dose steroids round the clock. Whatev. Ill see what my mom thinks. She's going to buy me a new book :) yay!
Coffee. Benedryl. Steroids. YESSSSS INSOMNIAC
I'm going to go crawl back into my cave and resume life upside down until the moon arises.
Life is never boring.
Update in 5 word sentences or less. YESTERDAY'S EVENTS
Went back to doctors.
Still has no idea.
Body still covered
Went to allergist IMMEDIATLY.
Not seafood, he thinks -WOO
Rash Called : maculopaplar eruption.
Last up to two weeks.
Still on high dose steriods
thought eh-no more benedryl.
WRONG WRONG WRONG.
May be allergic to eomycin.
In the vaccine, like neosporin
GREAT!
Allergy testing week before move-in
Steroids= no sun, weight gain...
itchy, bitchy, snappy, miserable
Skin= goes in cycles daily
Starting to slough[ said sluff]
Llooks like : think toss your child into boiling water..thats what it looks like
It feels like..cue list
sun burn-burning if on hard surface
moquito itch urge, i resist then it feels like electric pinches
gets redder and hotter as the day goes on
burning sensation from the inside out.
SO! It's starting to peel, kinda. I wanna die. I feel like the plague. It's gonna last a week at least.
I will be wearing long sleeves and pants out doors. Cant get burned 1) steroids make u burn 2) if this shit burns itll scar..fuckkk it im going to brooks&dunn on sat and the shore.
Oh and i cant drink because of the roids.
This will make you laugh::
so last night i couldnt take it anymore. when i resisted to scratch it burned and pinches and stupid nonsense. SO i googled anti itch. Vinegar works on my moquito bites.. so i tried that. I learned my skin is open in certain spots.
Then i tried wrapping my arm up tight in seran wrap. nope made noise and scratched my healthy skin.
THEN i made a baking soda concotion, painted my arm, and then seran wrapped the shit outa it. Fell asleep sitting up with my one arm under my leg.
In all fairness, I had to be allergic to something. But nooooo cant be itty bitty hives. NOOOO had to be this bullshit. People get hospitalized for this and I should be for like pain meds and high dose steroids round the clock. Whatev. Ill see what my mom thinks. She's going to buy me a new book :) yay!
Coffee. Benedryl. Steroids. YESSSSS INSOMNIAC
I'm going to go crawl back into my cave and resume life upside down until the moon arises.
Life is never boring.
28 July 2010
While waiting for the benedryl to kick back in...
Let me effin tell you what life has been like. All and all the purpose of these things, no?
Friday: Giddy me went to the doctors for my physical to be cleared for the Driver's Permit. La de dah I'm healthy no shit. I'm 5'1- HOLLAAAA. During the exam he goes, did you have your other HepA vaccine, and I said yes.
Are you sure?
Yes. I needed it for school.
Well who gave it to you
*blank stare*
Ohkay then.
He didn't give me time because he pulled a HepA vaccine outta his pocket and poof. Fucker gave me subq emphysema (he didnt get the air outta the syringe before he gave it to me.) So all day I was played with the air bubbles in my arm.
Saturday morning: stayed over johns, and woke up with a sore throat. Not always abmornal especially when I use different toothpaste brand, or allergies. Went to his game. Got burnt (yes at 8am) and relaxed with sushi the rest of the day. Went home. Felt like crap! Headache and etc but it's fine. It's that time soo i figured chocolate and caffeine would suffice.
Sunday: was woken up to a text from Jen to go to the Phillies game :) woo! Me Jen, her sister, and Jules went down to meet up with Jamie and family for Jamies birthday. On the way down I looked at my legs. Red dots. Forearms. Red Dots. Looked like prickly heat. It was sooo effin hot out so I shrugged it off. Didn't burn nor itch so whatevs.
[The game was fun. we eventually left because we were kicked outta our seats due to lightning right behind house so we said fuck it and got cheesesteaks]
Sunday night: around 11, The prickly heat spread a little and covered both my forearms. Didnt itch nothin. Woke up my mom for benedryl because I wanted it to go away. She said I was bein weird. Drink fluids. and we'll keep an eye on it.
Monday morning. HELLO red bumpy looks like scarlet fever rash on my arms and thighs! and OH my boob and lower back. Hmm. Throat still sore. No fever. Definatly is a reaction to the HepA vaccine. I had no life altering changes eating wise, shampoos nothin. Went to doctors. He had no idea either. Cultered my throat for a strept infection because sometimes you get a rash for that. Otherwise it was probably mono or nothing. Some viruses come and go. He gave me a slip for blood work "just in case".
Got home. Hung out. John came to pick me up. My mom - now intruiged because we have NO clue what it is. [Mind you I've taken 4 showers in 24hrs.] Probably a virus. She said it's on my face! No mom that's my acne. She says it's redder than normal. Ohkay thanks mom. Now it spread to my neck.
Went to John's and hung out. The dots turned to blotches on my arms and elbows and was spreading up my back and down my legs. Around 930 I was gettin nervous and wanted to go home.
So now I look beautiful. A red ginger mess. Still NO itching. NO fever. Weird. Took benedryl, went to bed around 10-1030.
Mom kept checkin on me. I couldnt sleep on one side for too long because it hurt. Especially my elbows and shoulders. Around 530 am shes gettin ready to leave I hear her check on me [I'm sleeping on Kevins floor just in case it's contagious? meh]. Now it's flaming red. It burns. She asks if i'm alright I say yeah. It's now up my neck, on my hands all over my butt. [yeah awesome right] SHe gives me gatorade and waterbottle and says keep hydrated and call me if it gets worse. No one is gonna be home besides me and the dog.
I pass back out.
Tuesday. Nine am i get a wake up call from the docs - it's not strept. Thanks. So I get up. go to the bathroom la de dah. WHOA. Hey face. Youre swollen. Lips? Have you gone Negro?
Eh well. Pop another benedryl, apply for a job [Got denied] and erin walks in. Whoa..uh how you feel. I say like shit. She goes: well im here for five minutes, uh keep drinkin and call mom.
Called my mom. told her. Then called the docs called them. THey didnt respond. Madre calls back and says im leavin work. [That NEVERRRR happens]
We got to the ER, I no longer look pale but a nice red. [Cue mom's ginger joke] Register. Get funny looks. [do i realllly look that bad?!] Get called back. But on the NASTY gown [yes I was at my old hospital. awesome] Doc comes in, looks at my forearms hmm are we having an allergic reaction to somthing? lifts up my sleeves and gown WHOA yes we are now. So! He orders IV 50mg of Benedryl and 30 mg Solumedrol -a steriod. The only reason w came in. Nurse puts the line in. Leaves. My tongue is getting thicker and my throat gets this pulling feeling. My mom tells the doc. The nurse comes in with the meds. Steriod-Done. My throat feels cool, like when you get anesthesia and I think ahhh euphoria im gonna pass ou.. wait..wait I can't breathe..somethings holding my neck. She pushes the Benedryl and it gets worse. All I could say was mom and I could feel the tears. It started getting black and I couldnt breathe. I tried slowing my breath but I couldnt. It got black again and the nurse had oxygen ready.
Everything finally started kicking in. The pain was really bad now. Like nerves on end. Got blood work done. Pee tested [just in case my kidneys were taking a toll]. Tried sleeping for a bit. Finally I started to look less like a burn victim.
There is <1% of the population to have a severe reaction to the HepA vaccine of course I was lucky to experience it. Thanks doc you really helped.
I'm now taking 50mg of benedryl around the clock. And a mega dose of Prendisone 60mg Daily- tappered . [minimum 5mg max 60] So I'm a little l0oped. [don't shower unless erin is home you have a lot in your system] Thanksss Mom.
Oh and I did have my other HepA Vaccine.. Soph year at Blue Bell.
Friday: Giddy me went to the doctors for my physical to be cleared for the Driver's Permit. La de dah I'm healthy no shit. I'm 5'1- HOLLAAAA. During the exam he goes, did you have your other HepA vaccine, and I said yes.
Are you sure?
Yes. I needed it for school.
Well who gave it to you
*blank stare*
Ohkay then.
He didn't give me time because he pulled a HepA vaccine outta his pocket and poof. Fucker gave me subq emphysema (he didnt get the air outta the syringe before he gave it to me.) So all day I was played with the air bubbles in my arm.
Saturday morning: stayed over johns, and woke up with a sore throat. Not always abmornal especially when I use different toothpaste brand, or allergies. Went to his game. Got burnt (yes at 8am) and relaxed with sushi the rest of the day. Went home. Felt like crap! Headache and etc but it's fine. It's that time soo i figured chocolate and caffeine would suffice.
Sunday: was woken up to a text from Jen to go to the Phillies game :) woo! Me Jen, her sister, and Jules went down to meet up with Jamie and family for Jamies birthday. On the way down I looked at my legs. Red dots. Forearms. Red Dots. Looked like prickly heat. It was sooo effin hot out so I shrugged it off. Didn't burn nor itch so whatevs.
[The game was fun. we eventually left because we were kicked outta our seats due to lightning right behind house so we said fuck it and got cheesesteaks]
Sunday night: around 11, The prickly heat spread a little and covered both my forearms. Didnt itch nothin. Woke up my mom for benedryl because I wanted it to go away. She said I was bein weird. Drink fluids. and we'll keep an eye on it.
Monday morning. HELLO red bumpy looks like scarlet fever rash on my arms and thighs! and OH my boob and lower back. Hmm. Throat still sore. No fever. Definatly is a reaction to the HepA vaccine. I had no life altering changes eating wise, shampoos nothin. Went to doctors. He had no idea either. Cultered my throat for a strept infection because sometimes you get a rash for that. Otherwise it was probably mono or nothing. Some viruses come and go. He gave me a slip for blood work "just in case".
Got home. Hung out. John came to pick me up. My mom - now intruiged because we have NO clue what it is. [Mind you I've taken 4 showers in 24hrs.] Probably a virus. She said it's on my face! No mom that's my acne. She says it's redder than normal. Ohkay thanks mom. Now it spread to my neck.
Went to John's and hung out. The dots turned to blotches on my arms and elbows and was spreading up my back and down my legs. Around 930 I was gettin nervous and wanted to go home.
So now I look beautiful. A red ginger mess. Still NO itching. NO fever. Weird. Took benedryl, went to bed around 10-1030.
Mom kept checkin on me. I couldnt sleep on one side for too long because it hurt. Especially my elbows and shoulders. Around 530 am shes gettin ready to leave I hear her check on me [I'm sleeping on Kevins floor just in case it's contagious? meh]. Now it's flaming red. It burns. She asks if i'm alright I say yeah. It's now up my neck, on my hands all over my butt. [yeah awesome right] SHe gives me gatorade and waterbottle and says keep hydrated and call me if it gets worse. No one is gonna be home besides me and the dog.
I pass back out.
Tuesday. Nine am i get a wake up call from the docs - it's not strept. Thanks. So I get up. go to the bathroom la de dah. WHOA. Hey face. Youre swollen. Lips? Have you gone Negro?
Eh well. Pop another benedryl, apply for a job [Got denied] and erin walks in. Whoa..uh how you feel. I say like shit. She goes: well im here for five minutes, uh keep drinkin and call mom.
Called my mom. told her. Then called the docs called them. THey didnt respond. Madre calls back and says im leavin work. [That NEVERRRR happens]
We got to the ER, I no longer look pale but a nice red. [Cue mom's ginger joke] Register. Get funny looks. [do i realllly look that bad?!] Get called back. But on the NASTY gown [yes I was at my old hospital. awesome] Doc comes in, looks at my forearms hmm are we having an allergic reaction to somthing? lifts up my sleeves and gown WHOA yes we are now. So! He orders IV 50mg of Benedryl and 30 mg Solumedrol -a steriod. The only reason w came in. Nurse puts the line in. Leaves. My tongue is getting thicker and my throat gets this pulling feeling. My mom tells the doc. The nurse comes in with the meds. Steriod-Done. My throat feels cool, like when you get anesthesia and I think ahhh euphoria im gonna pass ou.. wait..wait I can't breathe..somethings holding my neck. She pushes the Benedryl and it gets worse. All I could say was mom and I could feel the tears. It started getting black and I couldnt breathe. I tried slowing my breath but I couldnt. It got black again and the nurse had oxygen ready.
Everything finally started kicking in. The pain was really bad now. Like nerves on end. Got blood work done. Pee tested [just in case my kidneys were taking a toll]. Tried sleeping for a bit. Finally I started to look less like a burn victim.
There is <1% of the population to have a severe reaction to the HepA vaccine of course I was lucky to experience it. Thanks doc you really helped.
I'm now taking 50mg of benedryl around the clock. And a mega dose of Prendisone 60mg Daily- tappered . [minimum 5mg max 60] So I'm a little l0oped. [don't shower unless erin is home you have a lot in your system] Thanksss Mom.
thats my left arm after round the clock benedryl and massive steriods.. looks reallly good actually : /
Oh and I did have my other HepA Vaccine.. Soph year at Blue Bell.
25 July 2010
Mozart. Relief. Tea Time?
One of my favorite "aaahhh" moments of the day just passed. (the I just let loose one of the straps of my bathing suit /slash/ unhooked my bra &... ah freedom ). Was that uncomfortable? If youre saying yes then sorry.. when I accidently watch a guy scratch himself then he winks at me..thats uncomfortable.
I'm quote whoring again. Up to no good, per usual. These weeks I'm truly living the poor yet not quite starving artist life. Tomorrow I will schedule a date, then create. John and I need to clean out his shed so we can create our thingy ma bobs. I really want one to take back to school. Three weeks? I think we can do it.
Soooo vague.
----------------------------------- 20mins lapse
I'm quote whoring again. Up to no good, per usual. These weeks I'm truly living the poor yet not quite starving artist life. Tomorrow I will schedule a date, then create. John and I need to clean out his shed so we can create our thingy ma bobs. I really want one to take back to school. Three weeks? I think we can do it.
Soooo vague.
----------------------------------- 20mins lapse
21 July 2010
18 July 2010
smile, or don't.. you're constantly on display
I feel as though I should have some great extravagent, mind exploding, earthquaking adage; one that tells of the great adventures I have recently been fortunate to embark on, or the satisfaction that things have gotten better and miraculously, I am right side up. Unfortunately I don't have this silly-string of heartfelt words.
I can say that the moon is tickled pink, smiling awkwardly at me through the window. I can say I have seen many beautiful miracles, or otherwise known as the wonder of the weather and earth's inhabitants. I can say I have completed a few things on my faintly remembered Bucket List. I can say that it was refreshing to step away from the computer, and facebook, and the unessecary nessicities of life in the 21st century.
I can say it took me a majority of the week in South Carolina to unclench and relax from the higstrung caccoon I have been encased in for the past year or two. I'm waiting to crash into the wall that every new Nurse hits once they pass. Truthfully, I've avoided it.. but I can't anymore.
Vacation Adventure 2010 went as follows:
July3-9th Hilton Head, South Carolina.
Life consisted of beachy days, and hazy nights. Dolphin tours, kyaking, parasailing, java joe's, Piggly Wiggly, firework displays, late night walks, bike rides, beer pong, ping pong, family photos, and homemade food, froofroo drinks, and Elmo's World.
July 9th-14th Cape Coral, Florida
Life consisted of floating in a pool, water volleyball, canal fishing, ocean fishing at 530 am, catching and cooking dinner, Hot Tub Time Machine, Coach outlet and one of the biggest malls ever, bowling, guitar hero, and board games.
July 14th-July 15th
Life consisted of being shot gun, driving to NC, mansions, homemade cookies, little cousins, crashing toy cars, and Thunder Cats
July 15th-July 16th
Life consisted of Driving, being Elite members at a Marriot, Domino's, Bacardi Rum, late night TV, driving home-Finally.
July 16th
Bonfire minus fire with friend whom I missed and met new ones.
July 17th
Ocean City for the day, free lunch, ice cream, and Beer Pong at night.
Simultaneously through all that;
My Nursing License came in
Dean's List award
Lost my job
Read five books.
Some beautiful thing I've seen:
Lightning rocket the sky alongside stars.
A family of ducks
The Milky way, shooting stars in the sky and on earth.Love glowing phytoplankton and acting 2years old
Noella swimming in the ocean
Sand Dollars
My family finally together.
I'm done typing. I need to go write a list. and get ready for my massive todo list.
I can say that the moon is tickled pink, smiling awkwardly at me through the window. I can say I have seen many beautiful miracles, or otherwise known as the wonder of the weather and earth's inhabitants. I can say I have completed a few things on my faintly remembered Bucket List. I can say that it was refreshing to step away from the computer, and facebook, and the unessecary nessicities of life in the 21st century.
I can say it took me a majority of the week in South Carolina to unclench and relax from the higstrung caccoon I have been encased in for the past year or two. I'm waiting to crash into the wall that every new Nurse hits once they pass. Truthfully, I've avoided it.. but I can't anymore.
Vacation Adventure 2010 went as follows:
July3-9th Hilton Head, South Carolina.
Life consisted of beachy days, and hazy nights. Dolphin tours, kyaking, parasailing, java joe's, Piggly Wiggly, firework displays, late night walks, bike rides, beer pong, ping pong, family photos, and homemade food, froofroo drinks, and Elmo's World.
July 9th-14th Cape Coral, Florida
Life consisted of floating in a pool, water volleyball, canal fishing, ocean fishing at 530 am, catching and cooking dinner, Hot Tub Time Machine, Coach outlet and one of the biggest malls ever, bowling, guitar hero, and board games.
July 14th-July 15th
Life consisted of being shot gun, driving to NC, mansions, homemade cookies, little cousins, crashing toy cars, and Thunder Cats
July 15th-July 16th
Life consisted of Driving, being Elite members at a Marriot, Domino's, Bacardi Rum, late night TV, driving home-Finally.
July 16th
Bonfire minus fire with friend whom I missed and met new ones.
July 17th
Ocean City for the day, free lunch, ice cream, and Beer Pong at night.
Simultaneously through all that;
My Nursing License came in
Dean's List award
Lost my job
Read five books.
Some beautiful thing I've seen:
Lightning rocket the sky alongside stars.
A family of ducks
The Milky way, shooting stars in the sky and on earth.Love glowing phytoplankton and acting 2years old
Noella swimming in the ocean
Sand Dollars
My family finally together.
I'm done typing. I need to go write a list. and get ready for my massive todo list.
01 July 2010
phase one complete.
Boards, accomplished.
I PASSED and it was the best feeling inthe world. I cannot even describe it nor do I believe it.
Ah. Sigh of relieffff. The test itself was actually pretty easy.
Now I can relax. Im poor. Im unemployed. But I PASSEDD
I PASSED and it was the best feeling inthe world. I cannot even describe it nor do I believe it.
Ah. Sigh of relieffff. The test itself was actually pretty easy.
Now I can relax. Im poor. Im unemployed. But I PASSEDD
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