18 December 2009

that feeling.

Yanno when you're nauseous
and the world is spinning
and the butterflys have mutated into dragonflys
and you don't wanna breathe to deep, or too fast
and you're just anticipating when the remnants of stomach content
will project at least 1foot in front of you
and when you feel it,creeping up your throat, making it's GI journey
and it finally reaches your mouth
and you realize it's only a burp?
You feel relieved.

Yanno how you randomly one day see that person
and the light reflects their eyes just perfectly
and they smell really awesome
and how their giggle makes you laugh
and you you find your self smiling for no reason
and you realize WOW!
I still know how to smile.

Yanno how you feel butterflys.
and you feel the euphoric dreams
and two turtle dove metaphors
and you find yourself reaching for their hand
and blushing
and kissing
and laughing
and smiling
and you realize
You are in love.

Yanno when you start to fight
and the little things start to annoy you
and you find yourself fighting
and knit-picking
and you feel a little less love
and you get scared
and make mistakes
and then they say
We need to talk.

Yanno when you start to have that conversation
and you realize you're scared
and you love them
and then you question if it's worth it
and you're head is spinning
and you no longer see the sparkle
and you no longer laugh
and the butterflys are transformin into dragon flys
and they breathe fire
and you feel pain,
and you're nauseous
and the remnants are making it's way up
and up
and up
and you realize you dont love them anymore
and you burp.

You feel relieved.

And they walk away.

welcome back to the world, love the cessation of finals.

Oh gloriouuuss. I have returned-almost- to real life. I have one looming test at 10. Am I worried? NO. Do I realllly care? Not at all.